December 11, 2011 Future versus Past
I’ve lost my future
While I was desperately searching for my past.
I wanted so badly to find it again
That I forgot my future was waiting for me,
Worried about my delay.
He left me for a person who had the courage
to watch it in the eyes and live it.
Has anyone seen my future,
Colored in red, black and white,
Brightened, sometimes darkened,
Straight or sinuous,
Smiling and sometimes crying?
Can anyone help me find it?
(2006)
I was 16 and worried about my future. What strange childhood and teenage years Miss Audrey had!
(~2006)
Tags: future, life, past, personal, poem, teenagers, writings
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- Posted under 2006-2010, Life, Poems, Writings
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Ben Naga
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“What strange childhood and teenage years Miss Audrey had!”
Perhaps not so strange.
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Miss Audrey
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Perhaps I’m not that special, as to have had an unique childhood and teenage years, in feelings and thoughts…
You too?:)
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Ben Naga
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As strange as others’ perhaps,including mine maybe, yet I’m certain yours was quite unique.
If we were living in the same place we could spend whole evenings comparing, but it seems we are not.
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Miss Audrey
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Too bad we are not
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Lucianus Mauricius
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It’s not a matter of having a unique childhood, as much as it’s a matter of having one at all. I’ve always told people I went from being a little boy to an adult skipping all my childhood and teenage years, that’s the ugly truth. Great post Audrey
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Miss Audrey
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Well, I’ve spent my childhood trying to be mature, but it was my choice, I don’t know why I chose to be serious when every one was still playing with their dolls..
Teenage years are horrible, anyway, you didn’t lose anything. 
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Lucianus Mauricius
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I lost a lot my dear. I lost my innocence, my dreams of being just a boy, my beliefs. They took it away from me, raped, abused, crushed under their feet an then they threw it away like yesterday’s garbage. I’m the one that I am today thanks to these people, and their deeds are being punished, while I have no remorse in their demise. Quoting yet another movie; We all pay as we go on life, sometimes a little bit, sometimes all we have.
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No Blog Intended
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I don’t think you are the only one worrying for his/her future. I mean, it’s everywhere. Would anyone go to school or eat healthy things if there was no future to scare you?
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Miss Audrey
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At 16 you don’t worry about your future, you have fun with your present. I don’t know, I remember looking around in my class and this is what I was seeing, while I was worrying about my past. At 21 is normal, at 16..?
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No Blog Intended
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Now it makes you worrying about the past
. I don’t think it’s so weird. Some people just worry about things, and you are one of them, just like me.