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I realized something about me and E., these past days : we became too serious, too soon.
We spend all day worrying about money and thinking of ways of earning more money : mostly because we plan to quit our jobs (me in June), and E. a bit later, but… also because the money we earn are not enough. Really are not enough! My fridge is almost empty, I have some soup, and we have to pay the rent till the end of the month. I don’t know how we will do it.
We also want to go on a short trip this Easter(5th of May), to my aunts and grandmother. We need this trip, we need it like we need a mouthful of fresh air, like we need nature after staying in a workshop (E.), or in a classroom (me), when it is lovely and sunny and hot outside. And birds are chirping, bees are buzzing, the trees are in bloom, and we stay in. All this time, in. We come home and we go for a short walk, because before we know it, it is dark, and the birds have gone to sleep…
I know I’m strong, and proud too… My parents never know how hard it is for us. But truth be told, it was never as bad as now. We always handled it very well.
Probably now too. We will handle it. It will pass.
Meanwhile, I’m an optimistic, smiling ME. “Fake it till you make it”. Deep inside I’m on the verge of depression, but I see E. is stressed too, and I don’t want to put more pressure on him.
So I’m morale officer in Wonderland. Me. Morale officer. Ha. Things change.
(It’s funny that we need a morale officer, in WONDERLAND, isn’t it?)
Yesterday was a great day. We went, my sister, her fiancé, another couple, E. and I to a field. The wind was blowing, the sun was shining, a beautiful spring day.
My father always dreamed to fly and unfortunately until now he had no opportunity to make his dream come true, except a short plane flight some 20 something years ago. But on Christmas he received a kite. A small blue kite who would fly instead of him.
So we took his kite and gave it the chance of the first flight.
At first we were like 6 children who haven’t read the instructions but believe themselves to be know-it-alls. After some failed flights, our kite flew! We laughed so much.
E. took me in his arms turned me upside down like I was 30 kilograms easier and like his back was made of steel. We ran, we laughed, we had a great day.
You don’t need much to have fun. You need a kite and a windy day. And let’s not forget the great company.
On another note, my birthday is soon. Hooray.